A poem that I wrote

The sky glows soft when you are near

Without validation im feeling fear

You are my whole world, my everything

You wrap me in warmth and purpose like a ring,

If you were by my side I would say,

There never would be too much time in a day.

I want you here next to me,

My greatest ambition is to make us both free.

I love you so fucking much it hurts,

Everything else in my life can become inert.

You are the headline of everything I do.

My goals always start and end with you!

Happy birthday!

2026
10/13
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I finished my associates degree in 2026

MCC is in the top 3% of community colleges in the country. I have no intention of completing a bachelors degree after this. A lot of people in my extended family also attended MCC. It was always my dream to finish college and now I have my associates degree. I am so happy. I’m also so grateful for all my friends and family who helped and supported me along the way.

2026
09/22
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Enoch, Entire Bible, and Gnostic Gospels

Hello everyone, about a week ago I completed a goal I had had since my early 20s. I completed the first book of Enoch. When I was younger I had tried to read it several times but I had been unable to get through the first few chapters. A big part of why this was possible recently was because I found a great narration on Audible. The narration is done by Christopher Glynn. It was very engaging.

I also finished the entire canon part of the Bible in February and I am a few months from reading through it again. This motivated me to download Elaine Pagel’s audible The Gnostic Gospels to receive more context around these writings. I had been interested in this topic for a while. I also have a great resource for anyone who wants to read the gnostic gospels directly for free:

https://othergospels.com/

2025
08/04
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My Psychiatrist said for the first time im stable

I’m sharing this to spread awareness about mental health. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 22 and since then my life has felt like a massive uphill battle. At my psychiatrist appointment on Wednesday, she said she thinks this is the first time ever that I have been fully stable. This is a really big deal for me as i have struggled with paranoia and delusions for a long time. It feels like finally being able to breathe for the first time in a long time. In addition to this i am also an autistic person who experiences sensory overload, and this also makes the ruminations worse.

I hope that by sharing my experience I will empower others to seek treatment and be compassionate towards those with mental health issues. My Filipino wife and I will soon be moving into a new house with my parents so they can help take care of our special needs daughter, Zora, who is 3. She has cerebral palsy because of a stroke she suffered while in the NICU. Our family has banded together to help take care of her. The new house has a nice basement living space for my wife and i and Zora will be in one of the upstairs bedrooms across the hall from her grandparents. I paid for half the closing costs on the new house.

Everyone in our family loves the new house. I hope this message resonates with someone and reminds people that there can be a future for people with conditions like autism and schizophrenia.

2025
07/25
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Shadow Work

I’ve been in therapy doing shadow work. I’ve also been working on a lot of my other issues. To be honest I am feeling more content than at any other time of my life. There are still days where I struggle, trying to make peace with the past. But I really feel like when I started therapy on the last day of March, the timing was perfect to integrate some of the pain from the past and really learn how to move forward. I wouldn’t trade my current happiness for anything.

I can’t recommend therapy enough, but if you do it you have to enter it with the right mindset. It wouldn’t have helped me very much if I had still been stuck in my old thought patterns. It helps to do a lot of journaling before your first session so you can really bring into the room the issues that are important to you. Like for example it had always been a goal of mine to do shadow work in therapy but I had never been able to get myself to remember to bring it up.

I also really recommend, if you want to get into shadow work, reading or listening to Man and His Symbols by Carl Jung. It is written by Carl Jung but it is accessible to laymen. I’ve been learning how to integrate my three parts of Self, which keeps my life far smoother and more regulated. Therapy is a great gift, and if you are going through any struggles it would be a great idea to try it.

2025
06/18
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VaporToday Etsy Store

Hello, I’ve just launched a new store on Etsy. It’s called VaporToday and it includes vaporwave and nostalgia-themed tees, hoodies, and mugs. It is your one-stop-shop for all your vaporwave merchandise needs. Check it out here:

https://www.etsy.com/shop/VaporToday

2025
05/21
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My Biography

My mom wrote an amazing biography about me called Seoul. You can find it on amazon if you want to learn more about me. My parents told me it has helped a lot of people

Here is the amazon listing:

2025
04/08
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Rubies, Emeralds and Sapphires

I recently started collecting the “big three” gems (rubies, emeralds, and sapphires) because i found a cool etsy shop that sells the jewelry affordably. I love my emerald ring, which helps me focus my energy. The etsy shop is called JewelrySavingLives. You can find it here:

https://www.etsy.com/shop/JewelrySavingLives

Here is their main website:

https://jewelrysavinglives.com/

2025
04/08
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YouVersion Bible app changed my life

I downloaded a Bible app last June, and it has honestly changed my life.

https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.sirma.mobile.bible.android

It’s called YouVersion. I had read the first five books of the Bible when I was younger, after starting a year long Bible plan. This was in my early 20s. But.. I became overloaded and never finished it.

Last June, I started a 6 month Bible reading plan, and finished the entire Bible by February. I believe finishing the Bible should be the first thing on anyone’s bucket list.

This app is completely free, in many languages, and it lets you listen along as you read, which is a great help for the genealogy sections.

2025
03/22
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Hello

One thing that I’m really excited about is I started collecting vaporwave cassettes. I’ve been listening to vaporwave for seven years and have been wanting to collect the cassettes for a while

2025
03/14
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